A Day In The Life of An SLer

Trama Drama Central v1

2007-08-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

(pic features barnzy in all his glory. jack ass)

I don't know about you but, that high drama in sl is seriously starting to get to me.

I hang out with alot of friends, granted only a few are female because let face it..

I'm a female, I know what we are capable of if we feel our "territory" is being invaded.

IE: A female is hanging out with our bf/or interest to much.

ANYHOW:

Barnzy!

He is a FRIEND.. yes, at some point, I liked to hang out with him.

It's just that he has a problem with IMPLYING that ppl are dioing something that they are not.

Last night, was just hard on me, you all know I buried my aunt, and that was just ...too much for my brain to handle.. and I figured Id hang out with my friends to take my mind off of that.

WELL..

BIG MISTAKE on the Barnzy front..

I was first with Con last evening, this is later in the evening as Raver or Morgan were not online..

So Con and I were shopping for room furniture, and I wanted to mess around with this wall I bought, it was funny, and since it was just kidding around, FULLY CLOTHED, I didn't think much of it.

Anyway, they were all standing, scripts.

So, Barnzy IMs me that hes leving after waiting two hours for me...but, I have IM's him asking for a tp, to which he ignored..

oooo k...

So I ask Con if he minds waiting while I go hug Barnzy good bye, since he was leaving for an undisclosed amount of time...(Which fyi I think is bullshit, just a ploy to make him the center of attention, since the time frame went from one week too three in a matter of mins.)

I get there, say hi, offer a hug, which he declined, and informed me that I was just off laying on some guy, and if I would like to fuck someone else to feel free, to which he used my rl name, ( whichI have learned is the way some slers like to drive a point home), and told me to have a great time fucking who ever.

Hmm.. I had no idea what he was talking about.. I don't think any of the poses were "fucking"... but..ooook.. I tried to inform him that no, actually I was NOT laying with anyone..

To which he begins to tell me how he works with LL, and is a helper (helper my ass, I have been there less time, and I know more about that place then he does..but sure), and that the ONLY way I could be stuck in that position, is if Im on a pose ball laying on some guy..

Hmm.. well I don't know wht to tell him, since I know for a FACT that I hadn't been...

Altho, what Barnzy says is golden.

So fine, I see a no win situation brewing, so I relog.

And.. hmm what did I come back too....

Let's see if I can post this.. your going to laugh...

*[23:26] Barnzy Soyer: (Saved Sun Aug 19 02:24:16 2007) You might be able to pull the whole single act off then...
[23:26] Barnzy Soyer: Just remember Morgana, how ever much you love Con...it will always come back to kick you in the ass.
[23:26] Morgana Hilra: i have no idea what your last comment was abt
[23:26] Morgana Hilra: i AM single
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: Would you like me to IM Death Clift?
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: con?
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: ong
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: Yes your main...
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: This being your alt avi :)
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: my main what?
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: Your main avi Morgana, lol...
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: my main?
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: Death Clift, your skype name, your main avi in sl, the one that is lovelingly partnered to con.
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: what are you talking about?
[23:27] Barnzy Soyer: Yes don't play stupid little girl.
[23:27] Morgana Hilra: its my SISTER!
[23:28] Morgana Hilra: i dare you to ask her
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: Oh so your twins? :)
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: HAHA!
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: And your use her skype name?
[23:28] Morgana Hilra: no, when i first started, i was working at the edge
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: Oh i see :D
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: LOL
[23:28] Morgana Hilra: and i had a stalker
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: HAHA
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: this is good
[23:28] Morgana Hilra: we decided for me to use her id
[23:28] Morgana Hilra: just for my job
[23:28] Barnzy Soyer: seeya morgana, go fuck someone else

Well, there you have it folks..

He swears up and down, that he never accused me of "fucking" someoen else...

BUT right there, you can see that.

When I worked for the edge, I used my sisters acct.

And YES, I do use it now and then to hide, because others know who I am, but its HER acct.

Ok, fine whatever.. I tp'd Alex in during all of this because I needed someone else to hear this..

To which came:

*[23:37] Barnzy Soyer: Do not put Alex through the same lies Morgana, he does not deserve it from you.

Do you see this?

This is NOTHING compared to what went down in OPEN CHAT in Greenies..

I ended up at the end of all this, with Con, Alex, and a friend named Carl, all there backing me up, that I am NOT a whore..

And thru out all of this, i am thinking to myself.. wtf does it matter, what BARNZY thinks of me?

He was suppose to be my friend!

Not my lover, not my partner.. nothing.

What right did he have to be jealous of anything i was doing or NOT doing?

He is the KING of playing everyone in site.

Alex knows what I am referring too..

I have better men that want to be with me, one in fact that would NEVER treat me this way,. because he knows if he does and hes wrong, if talking to him doesn't work, I BLOG!

It all boils down to this...

I was not upset that he would not hug me, or that on HIS pc ONLY I was in some weird layig down position..

I was hurt, and disgusted that he accused me of being a whore, and all of you that read my blogs KNOW I would NEVER sleep around on sl or anywhere else for that matter!

He just doesn't get it...

THREE DIFFERENT PEOPLE other then myself, telling him, I would NEVER do that.. and yet..

If he thinks it, it must be true.

At the end of the night, the player, oh pardon me... Barnzy, turns around and says oh shit, the gf is on I have to go.

LOL

Morgana Hilra.. is tech single..

As I stated before, other GOOD men want me.. and it is MY choice whom I partner too.

No one elses... but, lets clear this up right NOW..

Barnzy...never had a chance .. not one in rl/sl/hell/or beta grid.

Hes a dick.

(oh.. and btw..the other day, Barnzy, the little 20 yr old doll, called my yahoo, and the house full of ppl sat around while BARNZY made a complete ass of himself...2 guesses what HE was up to).

MORAL OF THE STORY....

NOT

PISS

OFF

BLOGGER!

This was not the end to this story but, I just got up, and I'm sure you all just want to read this.. and wait for it.. hugs.

I am off to sl to take care of my slutty self..

What a dick.

(ps: ladies, i know your not all bad, i love ya all just the same.. but you know exactly waht i was referrring too.. xoxoxox)

Second Life Thru My Eyes.

2007-08-12T07:07:00.000-07:00

Second life, is a growing industry.
A MULTI BILLION dollar one to add.

A game.. a place to act out your inner inhibitions.

A place, to go to NOT be yourself.

A game.. in the minds of most.

On the other hand..

Second Life, for some is a way to connect to our loved ones, across the world...
A place to make friends, and experience life, that we only could dream of.
It is the one place where one can go and be ANYTHING or anyone.
Without being judged.
People can open themselves up for friendships that normally they wouldn't consider due to society.
Example:

the jock
the geek
the prom queen.

You get the picture I'm sure.

Altho, yes.. SL IS a game..
People also make a living ..
They have jobs, and or land that they rent.
People have been known to use SL as their main source of RL income.
It's not hat hard with a little practice.

So we have this brilliant "world", and I still hear people saying it's only a game.

I have some questions...

IF SL is only a game..

Do we not bring ourselves to this "game"?

When relationships are formed..
And we fall in love.. or.. we spend time together..
Is it not US, in RL behind of avatars?

OUR feelings?
OUR personalities?
OUR hearts?

When a relationship ends...
Is it not OUR feelings that are damaged?

Granted there are people out there, that have the ability, to form this wall around themselves to stop from being hurt..
but, is this really a good idea?
Is that not just becoming more the GAME then the human BEHIND the game?

I don't know about others..
BUT

I conduct myself, as much as I can the way I would in rl.
Some things are different..
Believe it or not, I try to be more out going, and friendly in sl, as a pose to the raving loon that I am in rl.
(lol jk)
In rl, I am not "easy", so in sl... altho SL is HUGELY based on sex, I conduct myself in a lady manner, since in rl I am not a whore, I will NOT become one on SL.
I keep that one act for my partner.. someone that I care for, that I feel deserves that "gift".
And lets face it ladies and gents..
If you know that your partner, doesn't "give it away", then doesn't that make it so much better to you?
I know it would for me, altho I wouldn't NOT partner with someone because of how they handled themselves in the past.

Another thing, that makes this not just a game..

JEALOUSIES.

When people hook up in RL.. they tend to be jealous, tho they say they are not, of the ppl in their mates present and previous life..
This includes, ppl, jobs, past loves...

This baring in mind..
How is SL ANY different then rl?

In a relationship on SL, you still need to get over what others have done in the past.
Same as with RL.

With all this being said..

I personally enjoy going to SL, to spend time with the ppl that I love, and my new friends.
I also enjoy my studio, and soon to be gallery (I love the Idea, ty Damian), I enjoy making tattoos...
I enjoy dancing, and meeting new ppl, and hanging out with old friends.
I know I have made HUGE mistakes on the relationship front, as I am not perfect.
I have hurt ppl from the past, and I swear to god, or to LL, that if I could change it.. I would.
(wouldn't that be great? to find a time machine on sl, that could actually take away all the pain that lead up to a mistake, and let you do it over again?).
All I can do, is try to MAKE them listen, and try to make them see......
And if it won't happen, all i can do is move on.

I have loved ppl in the past, in rl..
BUT
I find, in SL, it can be soooo much worse..
Its not the PHYSICAL, that you fall for in this "game", this "alter world".
It's the PERSON, behind the avie.
So in sense, its their heart, and their souls that are the attractive part of them.

I would love to be able to say, wrap yourself up in a cocoon and don't get "involved", with anyone...but, in sense.. its one of the best experiences of SL.

For some of us.. we meet amazing new friends..
For others, they find the loves of their lives..
and for a few they find more reasons to care for someone in their present, just may it be that they are just far away from them, but that relationship may grow on to new and stronger, better things.

Believe it or not... some of these ppl..meet on sl.. and get married in rl..
(poking at Bebop Vox and HIS heart beat that he married.).

So, I will close this off now.. any questions, please leave a comment, and I will answer them...

If your brave,and haven't tried SL yet..

Come give it a try..

It's free for a basic account, so for the person that referred you, please, add Morgana Hilra (thats me!!)

http://www.secondlife.com/join/?u=ae7c27a6813c9f1c222e534653fd1367

Well, I hope to see you there.
And If your a first timer, please, add your name from SL below, and maybe we can meet up for coffee (lol) some time.

Peace Out Lovers!

Angel (Morgana)

One More for the Road

2007-07-03T03:52:00.000-07:00

**WARNING**

I recently rented from Omni Market, this is also the persons NAME.

Anyhow, I rented, 2 spots from him, and one of the spots I was having trouble.. so we moved my things to a different vendor last week, til he could take care of the problem..
Once the problem from another renter was taken care of, we moved my things back to the vendor space I was in.

Seems good no?

Well, today I was there moving things around, I had to go take care of my child, and then when I got back, I come to find that I have been banned from the mall.

I attempted to reach the owner, over the next 30mins..
Seeing that he was IN FACT online, and ignoring me.
Only when I threatened him, did he answer.. i told him I was going to report him, if he did not return my belongings, to which he said and I quote:

"[2:10] Omni Market: actually, I won this land and I can ban anyone I want for any reason at any time. you have been banned for excessively reserving rental spaces and placing no objects. IE, wasting mall space, time, money etc... now i will mute you as well.""

2 spaces is alot?
And.. ok, so he is allowed to ban me for no reason..
I paid for 8 weeks on BOTH shops upfront, I did not get a refund, he refuses to return my items.
He did return my resale belongings but not my personally made items.
Which include 4 vendors up top and two down low.
And he was very ignorant by putting me on mute, when I asked for my things back.

Please tell me how this is A: good business and B: the way to treat people?

I have since reported him to lindens labs.

He has no right to keep my belongings.
And he should repay the money that I spent on rent.

I find it odd, that I was making money in this mall...
This mall that I was apparently ""wasting space"".

I had the upper store, which was FULL.
And the lower store in which I was adding items tonight..

Interesting.

Well, it's nice to know we no longer have to worry about a copy bot..
Honestly, I think that is what they are up to there.

Lure new designers in, and boot them..
Then use their items to sell.

This was not right on so many levels.

So, please.
Be very careful out there when renting.
And for the love of sl.. do NOT rent from this person.
I would not want anyone else to have a problem.

I've done my part.. now please be careful.

xoxo

A Very Ticked Off SLER

Morgana Hilra

It Would Appear....

2007-06-30T01:14:00.000-07:00

Ok, so after a long break, I am BACK!
Just when you thought it was safe to shop and or put up new product, Morgana Hilra wakes from her personal coma and goes on the hunt again...

It's ok though.... In THIS segment.. you all are SAFE!!! MAHHHHHHH.....

Anyway.. tonight grip is simple..

Linden Labs..
You are aware teat once again, they are releasing a "new version" of sl..
btw.. they do this all the time..
When in fact they should be FIXING the original problems FIRST before adding new ones.
Tonight.. rolling restarts, all over the SIM.
Hit and miss ppl.. you get a warning the sim is about to restart...move move MOVE!!!
FUCK!
TP'd into another region restarting!!

This is nuts... why do they not get their collective shit together, before adding new problems.

I have been trying to log in for HOURS!!!
During this.. it has made my rl issues harder to deal with because its added stress.

Give me a break.

I am tired of this.. Im starting up several business's and I know that my personal friends, also have issues with their belongings not registering..
Or messing up due to lindens inability to mange their products appropriately.

We all have to find out WHY??
Why are they adding more options, when they very apparently can not handle the version that they HAVE!!!???

Not one of you out there that reads my blogs, can say that you think LL is PERFECT!
Hell, i'm betting that most of the employees, have massive issues with the rolling restarts, the sl issues.. the everything.

Its annoying, a waste of money, and its getting worse!

So far, I can not log into my account properly still.

WOW...

This is taking a life time... sl speaking of course.

I swear to god, if this is the shit, next week, I will be out for blood.

TRUST ME!

Welcome to the world of ME

2007-05-11T00:59:00.000-07:00

And so here we start...
What to say about ME...

Hmm, well if your reading this.. then you probably know me... or wish you did.
Am I vain?
YOU BETCHA!

Actually there is alot to me then meets the eye.

Alas, you have to take the time to get inside my head...and honestly..
not many ppl stick around long enough.

ALRIGHTY THEN!

On to the blog points...

Here you will find..

*SECOND LIFERS*

My favorite places...
Things I like to do and the places I feel are the best.

And I am going to share them with you.

ALSO...

You will find my burps.
Things that eternally piss me off!!

And trust me.. there is alot. So you will always have something to read.

And I will also post info about my studio, and my store.

Join the Heaven's Gate Studio group.
Updates, gifts, contests.

Should be a blast.

So with all that said.

I am Morgana... nice to meet ya!